01 Esta vida // This life
This life of mine!
02 Mentira // Lie
Lie
that I won't tell!
Lie
that I don't want to live !
I repeat
I repeat that I can't
I can't live like this anymore
with you, with you.
It's not that easy
to turn around and simply open the door
to the world we want to wake up in.
Our society today
is so indecent
corrupt actors that want to separate us!
My nature cries out: "Rebellion!"
I cannot understand
idealisms for the purpose of division!
What if respect were normal?
And harmony amongst us the base of our existence?
Being pessimistic is one of my weaknesses.
Lie
that I won't tell!
Lie
that I don't want to live !
I repeat
I repeat that I can't
I can't live like this anymore
with you, with you.
With you I lived a thousand situations
laughter, tears, disillusions.
You separated us because of your opinions
of hatred, violence and religions
What's the matter with you?
What are you waiting for?
You ignore the potential we have!
Being different makes us stronger
Free your mind from dead ideals!
What injustice
you committed
in creating an ideal
that based on lies
we believed it to be true.
The lie
spins round and round
Your greed is pure injustice
It's your mind,
the conscious one
That frees you from what awaits you.
03 Corre // Run
Run and run, run and run,
my life keeps running.
That tomorrow doesn't understand
What I defended yesterday.
Sensations already dead
open and break
doors
Run and run, run and run,
my life keeps running.
Look at me,
look at you
live and feel the dramaturgy
that even colours inspire you
Who will see you if you hide your mind
inspire yoursel,
my darling!
04 Dos Semanas // Two Weeks
What am I going to do?
What am I going to do?
Hope gets me nowhere
I feel lost in my soul
Fears that cloud my being.
Two weeks full of sorrow
living the insecurity
of feeling broken
confronting a new reality
I don't mind loneliness
when reason stays by my side,
But madness filled my fantasy
Of futures that only await wars, await wars.
Bad news won't go away
They come like sad melodies
You never think they'll come to you
But when they do, they empty you.
To live
the present without complaining
whilst moving forward
is an art like no other.
To know
that life is a challenge
that even laughs in your face
ignoring your morals!
If I seek a better today
I must transform
fears into beauty and harmony.
And in this way I decide
how the world turns for me.
These two weeks made me finally understand this.
05 Noviembre // November
Leaves that as they fall
are unwittingly calling
the arrival of winter.
Slowly without ceasing
they are randomly colouring
the roads with the wind.
Silence will come
and your footsteps will mark
a frozen desert.
They say goodbye to you today,
leaves of two thousand colours
that will die so soon.
Tree that gave its fruit
with the cold remembered
the end of another summer.
It will sleep very soon,
elegantly will await
the awakening of warmth.
November always leaves me
with a somewhat wounded heart.
It seems to come to threaten
a slightly matured autumn.
I know that winter
brings me a certain tranquility.
But November
comes to limit my soul.
Depressing rainshowers!
You didn't tell me
it would be like this
Dark days
symbolize a bad omen
that takes hold of me.
Oh that I can't tolerate
how time makes the sky suffer!
The earth speaks
arms it with war
puts everything to sleep.
November takes away our life!
In the place where I was born
the darkest thing I experienced
was a cloudy day.
Greens of a thousand shapes
that never saw time freeze.
Today I get excited
at every change of season,
I live its beauty every day.
Yet I feel how my anxiety rises
when October comes to an end.
Today in mourning silence
and emptiness came,
leaving behing an agonizing landscape.
Without clothes, it ended
with nostalgia bid everyone farewell
in an instant.
It's so tragic to watch
as thousands of colours
simply vanish!
Oh I wish patience
will limit the sorrow
that these days will leave.
At least I always know
hope has faith
when dealing with November.
My suffering is not eternal
for time will go on
and receive December.
06 Confusión // Confusion
Confused you feel
when I kiss your pretty red lips.
Whoever saw it
quiet down
it‘s not a secret to be shared.
I'm not the one who's gonna
get into ridiculous trouble
You know how it is
there are moments that come
to persuade you.
I see you, I love you,
desire burns in me;
my head says "This is something else"
mmm I don‘t care
mmm my mouth
wants to kiss you, touch you, love you!
No! No! No!
I'm not going to say
no, oh no, oh no, oh no!
You know!
that I'm gonna go on
oh yes, oh yes, oh yes!
How beautiful it is
to live, to live to live to live!
Ay! Ay! Ay! Ay!
How hard it is to live up
social expectations.
Society limits me!
Hear how my soul cries!
I live a sincere life!
Let me do whatever I want!
Come here, let's dance
come here, let's play
Give me memories for the days
when we go on with our lives.
Let me touch you and
Come, let us vanish
These are dreams who would have thought
give me all of your witchcraft.
Come here, let's dance
come here, let's play
my head says "This is something else"
Never mind let's keep going,
it's my conscious choice
Let me touch you and
Let us vanish
I'm burning, I'm burning,
I want to love you already!
Let's close the door
I don't want to leave you!
Photo by Andrea Peller
07 La hora 25 // The 25th Hour
Mark my hour, clock
mark the time where I can go
fall into the arms
of passions that have no name,
that surround me and take me as I am.
I want to dive into
the hour that does not exist
the time where two thirsty ones
have to plenty to drink.
I want to get lost in
the abyss of your mind
without having to remind myself of the clock
of the clock.
I dream of flying,
as high as an eagle
aimlessly, hiding in your sky,
so blue, so much of it, mmm.
No more thinking,
the clouds separate me
from other realities
that are already calling me
to return.
But what
Not now
It's the twenty-fifth hour on my clock.
08 Sobre la tristeza // About Sadness
When sadness comes,
it comes to me with subtlety.
It tells me that the blue
that I carry in my soul
doesn't want to set me free
doesn't want to untie me.
It takes me by the hands
tragic and fatal
reminding me of my mortality.
I have no malice
that affects other people
I don't want to be this way:
melancholic and complaining,
I think of something else
that makes me fantasize
and the only thing I feel
is the desire to cry.
No
What happened to me?
Why can't I escape this darkness?
Sadness you bring me sincerely
a certain quietness
and my soul turns it into melancholy.
I'm still here.
In my frozen state
Too desolate
I don't know
I never know how
to handle it.
It's hard
when time
doesn't pass
I stay here
without feeling
joy
Without the
warmth
of happiness
I lose my peace
and I lose myself
I lose myself.
09 Cielo es mi límite // Sky is the limit
Oh...
Tell me it's not you
that's trying to make me fall
from heights so high
that I am trying to reach
without the slightest clue
of how I'm going to achieve them.
I follow the paths that
my instinct dictates
a great labyrinth
that has no end!
If you want to criticise me,
criticise me now!
Criticise me today and tomorrow,
tomorrow.
The sky is my limit
The earth is for walking.
All of my dreams
With wings I will make them fly.
Even if you tell me
it's not reality
I close my eyes
and make them my truth.
I know what you think
That I'm irrational
that I live intensely
and only emotional.
You don't know that my mind
never stops doubting.
I confront my madness
I tell it "you have to stop!
Oh but I can't!
Oh but I don't want to!
I believe in my dreams!
In my desires!
They are all mine!
And in full life
I'm going to make them dance
I will see them dance!
The sky is my limit
The earth is for walking.
All of my dreams
With wings I will make them fly.
Even if you tell me
it's not reality
I close my eyes
and make them my truth.
I'm not lost
I know my way.
You don't trust it.
I know you trust
your own experience.
But that is another science
that doesn't belong to me.
Let my world
be shaped
in the way that I believe
it necessary.
I want you to look
with relevance
how different
you and I
you and I
are!
Let me be
the way I am!
10 El instinto me llama // My instinct calls me
Barefoot
Hands free
the sound of my voice.
Night falls
Full moon
not even your god exists.
The soul runs
Uncertain direction
No one dictates my passion.
I always follow
the path
that my heart wants.
For better or for worse
My instinct calls me.
Inside and outside I am one
I don't make a difference
I don't care where I go
I live only today
Rivers, veins, all the same
Tree, legs, material essence
My immortal: present
My presence: irrational.
Sun that shines my sweat
Sun that falls my fear
Solid ground of my love
Alone full of courage
My extremes I will love
My senses I will tame
I go without reins to fly
I leave everything
I leave everything
to return: never.
11 Hacia adentro // Within Yourself
Do not tell me how to live
I have witnessed so many societies that oppress us
concealing our paths,
separating us from our own identity.
How many ideals have you blindly ignored,
arrogant contempt, artificial objective
You think that material wealth gives you greatness
money has bought your morals.
We get lost in fear
weapons pretending to
control us for your normality's sake.
Let us wake our minds
bodies we own
consciousness is a necessity!
We are dreamers and constant creators of our reality
How is it possible that we ignore the beauty of feeling freedom?
Close your eyes now and return to the roots of your deepest depths!
Look inside yourself in peace we find our ground
and the path to more humanity.
Our soul has been stripped of its tranquility and is losing its finesse,
silencing it every day with useless distractions.
Wolf devouring,
your shelter is being threatened,
the god of laziness is what we feed.
Vicious circle of greed pursues you
so menacing that it leads to your own doom.
You move like a snake
dependent on hatred
mistreating for your own well-being.
This dissonance
creates the distance
that will undoubtedly separate us further and further.
A sensitive awakening
is essential!
Consciousness is a necessity!
We are dreamers and constant creators of our reality
How is it possible that we ignore the beauty of feeling freedom?
Close your eyes now and return to the roots of your deepest depths!
Look inside yourself in peace we find our ground
and the path to more humanity.
When I look inside, I look at the sea
I see what I lost
what I stopped experiencing
because I forced myself to be quiet.
When I look inside, I search for more of
what makes me happy
without having to feel
an obligation.
When I look inside, I let go
I let everything go
I feel at last
that I don't owe anything to anyone.
When I look inside, I find in me
a free dreamer
who understands
her own freedom .
Look inside yourself and you will find the core
of your freedom
of your freedom
Look inside yourself and you will find the core
of your freedom
for humanity
Look inside yourself!
12 Elegía a mis ilusiones // Elegy to my desires
It burns my mind when I feel indifferent.
How much I miss you, desires, when I hear you in my songs.
I speak of you! I'm speaking of you!
So much you lost!
So much you gave me!
Leaving memories,
yearnings.
I've been crossing the calm fogless waters for some time now.
Where my eyes already dry from so many steady smiles.
I suffer no more! They suffer no more!
But with so much constancy
I feel no more than distance to my desires,
my passions.
What more do you want!
You are being unfair!
Don't you see that you miss
that fire in you?
So much stillness
is not enough for you!
Don't you see wood
is what you soon will throw?
Desires
They're gone.
That you will fo looking for them?
You already know you will!
You know I'm speaking of you! I'm speaking of you!
So much you lost,
so much you gave me
Leaving memories,
yearnings!
Those sinister insanities
that haunted my dreams
How many riches they left
in my faithful heart.
Come on desires, don't leave me,
don't leave me!
Although I think it was me
who left them.
Photo by Andrea Peller
1 Golondrina // The Swallow Bird
She arrives unexpectedly to tell me
what I have been feeling
without realizing that what she wants to give me
is everything I ever dreamt of.
Wings! Freedoms! Excitement!
It’s all I want!
Life! Melodies! Fantasies!
It’s all in me!
Oh, my swallow I have begun to love you.
Why didn’t you leave when it started to rain?
Can’t you see, this winter does not belong to you?
I don’t want to leave you,
but you must part!
Oh, my swallow you know our truth:
Our story is not meant to be.
This “you and I” does not exist and cannot go on
so fly away, swallow, do not stay by me.
Reason, oh no, I will not listen to you.
I know your voice keeps me away from trouble.
Certainly, in some near future,
but today, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t!
I won’t choose reason.
I won’t choose reason.
I won’t choose reason.
I can tell you now how much I miss your words in my ear,
those words that gave sense to my present back then.
Soon I realize how we get lost in paths
that will never be allowed to blossom.
I am still searching for excuses
to tell you that I am crazy for you,
that I don’t want to let you go!
I don’t even know how to
return to a life without my beautiful swallow.
02 Superficial
You speak and speak without saying much,
your beautiful lips only know laughter.
So many useless words,
meaningless at the end of the day.
That gaze says nothing to me,
this emptiness gives me the chills.
My wishful thinking hopes
that your mind will get bored of it soon.
Superficial!
Can anyone stop this bullshit?
I’m tired of watching this vulgar way of living a life that lacks beauty.
I certainly don’t want to be this way!
Tell me, darling, what is going on.
I can imagine, there must be a reason beneath the surface
that makes you such a purposeless idiot.
I love madness and breaking patters.
I love to yell and cry without reason.
Don’t misunderstand me, let me explain what I mean.
One has certain pride in thinking dierently.
I know you have it, it drives me crazy how you waste your incredible potential!
You could inspire other people to start living their present more consciously to elevate their minds.
I am tired of having to speak to people that are
so incredibly superficial! Can anyone stop this bullshit?
I’m tired of watching this vulgar way of living a life that lacks beauty!
I certainly don’t want to be this way!
03 Ella // She
Turn around, look at the way she’s dancing.
Can’t you realize it doesn’t match your heart?
Without doubt she’s playing with your mind
and not telling you that she doesn’t understand the kind of love you want to feel.
I’m telling you, oh darling, hold on to your coat,
cold nights are coming.
after so many years of loving without growing.
How much longer do you want to suffer from her absence?
Count the months you’ve spent deciding.
And even when she’s by your side you’ll never want to realize how confused she makes you feel.
That’s why I’m telling you, my friend, go and follow your path without her.
Yours got lost after believing so much without knowing.
She never found out
of the sleepless nights that you spent
yearning for her, suffering so deeply from loneliness.
She never found out that you painted her
dancing with moons and oceans
that you could never experience without suffering.
She was beauty for you.
You gave yourself entirely without asking for more love,
the kind that she didn’t know how to give you,
even after sharing all your secrets with her.
She never really knew how to love you.
The melancholy you feel by letting her go
hurts your soul even more than holding on to her.
You know that being with her will never bring peace to your life.
Move forward, my friend, this too will pass.
I know your memory will dance you to madness.
And optimism will persuade your reason.
Sometimes without relief you will lose your breath whilst remembering her by your side.
And so many times you will want to go see her
and you will beg her to come back.
For justice you will cry:
after striving so much without achieving anything.
You will see, time will bring you joy.
With wisdom you will follow your path.
And when you think of her you will not understand the reason for such irrational romance.
That even if it was painful, it was a lesson to be learned and very soon you will honestly think:
“After so many years of loving without knowing.”
She never found out
of the sleepless nights that you spent
yearning for her, suffering so deeply from loneliness.
She never found out that you painted her
dancing with moons and oceans
that you could never experience without suffering.
04 Despiértate // Wake up
“Raise your hand, sweetheart,”
they taught you as a child,
“Don’t speak so rigorously,
you better be quiet.”
Treasures of youth are taken away from you,
opening up your coffin,
your thrills vanish with the wind.
Are you staying or are you leaving?
Are you staying?
No! Now you’re leaving!
Leave this place!
How proud are you of your name
when you realize that the only feeling you have
is that of running away from life?
So they taught you to keep your mouth shut,
and now you’re watching a life that is not yours?
Are you staying or are you leaving?
Are you staying?
No! Now you’re leaving! Get away from here! Get away from here! Get away from
here!
“Raise your hand, sweetheart,”
they taught you as a child,
“Don’t speak so rigorously,
you better be quiet.”
Treasures of youth are taken away from you,
opening up your coffin,
your thrills vanish with the wind.
Are you staying or are you leaving?
Are you staying?
No! Now you’re leaving!
Leave this place! Leave this place!
The night arrives,
your saint dances,
mockery poisons your perception.
Ignorance shines,
the milk has gone sour,
the list of deception is long.
Aimless ship,
the storm is coming,
your heart feels dirty.
You no longer see the present
from all the pressure that the future is causing you.
So come on, wake up! Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
Are you staying or are you leaving?
Are you staying?
No! Now you’re leaving!
Leave this place.
Wake up.
Photo by Andrea Peller